i'm totally scared now. it's been months already but what i feel for you has not changed at all. things between us already changed, but i still remain attached to you and that kind of you that you allowed me to see. i never asked for it, i never expected it. you just happened. and i obviously fell head over heels. i don't know if a hate it or love it, all i know is that i just did. i really wanted to hold back, resist the feeling and not fall, but i just couldn't and now i'm a total wreck. i want to move on and leave everything behind, but everytime i find myself at the brink of doing so, i realize that everything that's happening only makes me fall for you even more. strange as it may sound, but i'm totally scared of you now. i'm scared to know that you don't feel the way i do, but i'm more scared to know that you feel the same way too. i hope you don't though. i really hope so. 'cause i know that it'll only make things more difficult and complicated. gahd. if only i can wish this feeling away. i don't want to be like this anymore.

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"Sometimes, it is not the possibility of rejection that frightens us. It is the thought of not knowing what happens next once you both find out that you feel the same way."

(my ate trying to sound profound)

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just tell me and i'll walk away for good. i'll be happy to do so, if that's going to make you happy. and if that's going to make things less complicated for you.
yes, that's how much i love you.