I WAS SUPPOSED TO RANT

okay, as the title says, "i was supposed to rant". yes i was supposed to rant about how my week seemed like hell, how i never got to eat anything decent after breakfast, how i would sleep so late at night and wake up so early the next day and how i was so stressed about stuff..yes that was supposed to be the whole theme of my blog. but i just couldn't make myself rant about those kind of stuff...why waste effort and blog space for something like that when you have all the wonderful stuff to write about? (which by the way happened in the last two days of the week)

wonderful thing number1:
I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS!

okay, after two weeks of super mighty longing, i was finally able to watch the transformers, and my gosh was it the best movie ever! i really loved how Shia was funny yet still kind of brave in the whole course of the story. it was really something! (haha!) and oh, thanks to czar for making arrangements. haha! thanks for convincing nikko and exe to come along with us. it was really great fun, especially now that nikko is actually talking to me already. (okay, now...how to break through Exe's wall??? hmmm. think!) and oh, czar, thanks for belting out with me in g-box. i had a great time. with you. you give me more reasons to smile. (yes naman!)

wonderful thing number 2:
I GOT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!

okay, this was a wonderful thing for many reasons. first off, i really liked the movie. it was not as exciting as the goblet of fire but it gave justice to the book, and it served its purpose, i believe. it was a transitional thing for harry and so i was not really expecting that much from it. haha. okay, the person i was with during the movie deserves his own part in this blog entry so i would not discuss anything further about him. hehe. except the fact that i have a crush on him. (shhh! don't tell anyone that). so read on if you want more "chismis" about me.

wonderful thing number 3:
I GOT TO HANG OUT WITH THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND THE PARTY WAS GREAT!

okay. need i say more? haha. the title speaks for itself right? i love being a CAMPer. i love CVC.

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okay, now comes the part most of my readers would want to know and would be most interested in. "the movie buddy". hmm, until this time, i would like to clear out that it was not really a date. it was more of an, uhm, movie gimick between two friends. it was not a "date". i paid for my own ticket, he paid for his. (i don't like it when guys pay for things). so because i have been asked oh so many times how we got to know each other, the story goes like this...when we were in first year, we had an FBC (freshmen block coordinator) who is his blockmate. i was introduced to him by this FBC. it was really not a big deal for me, at that time i was madly in love with their other blockmate. so there...during the second semester, we had classes which were on the same floor of GAB (gusaling andres bonifacio), and it was scheduled right after lunch time, so we got to talk every once in a while along the corridors. it was then that i started to notice that he was quite cute. (haha! block crush! haha.) well, actually, he is the epitome of whatever that is to be considered cute. then i got his number from somewhere (i could not actually remember where or from whom, but bottom line is that i got it) then after that we sort of started texting each other every once in a while. so one time, when i was really desperate to watch the transformers, i invited him (i didn't exactly understand why it was him that i chose invite), but unfortunately he didn't have the time and he said "Nxt tym nlng..Cguro ung upcoming movie k nlng n harypoter5.." so there, of course at first i thought it was a joke (no way was i watching a movie with this guy! super in my dreams!) but then i finally mustered the courage to ask him if he was serious about the harry potter thing. at first he didn't quite give me a straight answer, but something inside of me wanted his invitation to be serious. so there, on friday, July 13, 2007 (wow friday the 13th pala yun noh?!) he suddenly texted me that we watch the movie na. with the words "ngaun n"..so there, we watched the 1:45-4:00 screening. and all i can say is..."happy happy joy joy"..anyway, i'll write about him soon..let's all cross our fingers that this would not be the first and last time. (i really like him now)..

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dear you,

would you please please tell me what you feel? it's kind of hard to play the guessing game with you, especially since it involves feelings that can be misinterpreted most of the time. so please please tell me how you feel. i beg of you. okay, you can just show me signs if you don't want to say it. please make it clear..and soon.

sincerely,
me.

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dear harry potter,

thank you so much. i don't know why but, thank you. and oh, let's see if your thesis hypothesis is really true. and if all those reading would really pay off and would work (on me?!). haha! i know i agreed to be your thesis subject but please please draw the line between what is real and what is not. i wouldn't want to go around falling in love when it's all make believe in your world. i know that this is just a little thing, but i would really appreciate it if we would make things clear between us. we are friends right? and i'm happy with that already. i like you, yes i really do, but i wouldn't want to get hurt so there. i know i'm assuming so much by saying all of these, but i'm just being careful.

love,
me.

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something to think about:

One cannot question the existence of feelings;
they are there, raw and undeniable.
But one can choose not to nurture what is felt.
Yet, no matter what they say,
what has been felt will always be more honest than what has been chosen.
Hence, true realities are not built by the mind but by the heart.