i'm officially in hell...

well, it's been nine long days since my last blog entry..and boy, so much has already happened!!!!!!! i was even on the verge of breaking down and giving up..my gahd!!! i never really imagined that my college life would be sooooo difficult..(which by the way, is an understatement)..i was lucky enough to survive the first two weeks of this month..it all started on the 8th..which marked the day of our PE finals in Diliman..which was not so much a struggle..it was fun actually, but what we had to go through after was capital H, capital E, capital L, capital L...argh!!! well, we had this insanely difficult homework, err, problem set for MATH11 (which BTW i'm failing)..it took me two days to finish..with a lot of help too..imagine the difficulty of that!!!! (one of our professors once said that our seatworks are final exams in other schools/colleges/universities!!!! ARGH!!!)...then we had our 3rd Departmental Exams on the 9th..time?? 5:30pm-7:30pm..gahd!!! that is just not right..and the worst part of such?? we had another Departmental Exams the next day for CHEMISTRY!!!! the best part??? the time we took it!!! which was 8:00am!!!! so imagine,if you just went through intellectual torture the night before, arrived home at around 9pm or 11pm for the more unfortunate one's, and because you devoted all your energy the previous days in studying for math in the hopes of paasing, you would have to study again, cover the entire section on chemistry, and guess what?? in less than 12 hours!!!! well, that is if you have crossed out sleeping and eating...argh!!! HEADACHE GALORE...well, guess what?? it doesn't stop there!!!! after your departmental exams in chemistry, you would have to attend another class in the afternoon, only to be given an assignment that is more draining..imagine squeezing a paper assignment in your very tight schedule?? imagine that?? huh?? and it's not just a simple paper..you would have answer ungodly questions that would never have crossed your mind if you were not taking philo and it has to be 8-15 pages, more importantly you would have to finish it by next week!!!! gahd!!!!, well after that class, you go home, but you have no time for rest at all..why?? because you have classes the next day!!!! and what would you do in that class this time??? oh nothing much, you would just have a 75 item exam on 5 chapters of Philippine History, which you haven't read because you were too busy with math then chem, and after the test you would have reports and presentations on previously given topics, the presentation by the way also counts as a long exam..so that is two exams in a day..that class of yours takes 6 hours to finish, and at the end, you find out that you failed the math dept's...argh!!!! the next day, you have no classes but would have to go to school anyway to see if you can still salvage your failing math grade and complete the compilation of readings for another exam in History, which will be on the day before the deadline of your Philo Paper...the readings, when complete would be another 5 chapters on Philippine History..now you are faced with a terrible challenge..how would you finish reading ALL of the readings and your paper with only 2 free days left??? why only 2?? well, you remember that you would have a presentation of your project proposal for NSTP..oh, the futility of such programs...and take note, this is not the end of it all, because you would have to endure 7 more days, packed with different final exams..with all of this, a continuous feeling of nausea, throbbing head and shaking knees...wow!!!! then your price comes..guess what?? SEMESTRAL BREAK!!!, which i think is too short..why?? it would be less than two weeks!!! gosh..this is my life..i have never read this many chapters of books in my life before..if i may say so, this has been one hell of a week, whihc is basically the worst ever..and the most difficult too..it has been a week of stress and sleep deprivation...a week when there was a point when i literally wanted to kill myslef..i'm soo tired..soo drained..i really want a break.no i don't want a break..i NEED a break..i swear, i'm going to sleep for two whole days during the sembreak..but, for now, i still have that feeling of nausea, throbbing head and shaking knees...heck, even my soul is tired and down...oh well, i chose this life..i chose The University of the Philippines over all the other Universities IN the Philippines..i should deal with this and continue to fight..what more can i do anyway???