cleaning up my act..
(i still like him though...)

i've had it with creating and writing solely about him...(it's not healthy anymore..)..it has for the longest time consumed sucked out all my energy..(to the point of a very embarassing breakdown in my math11 class..) so for the sake of "me", i would try to look at the brighter things in life..(like cakes and FHM's plus nipple talks)...

A love-hate relationship:
(this used to be the greatest love affair in the whole universe btw...)

i, for most of my life, have had one of the best relationships with the greatest enemy of most students..no, i am not talking about teachers (contrary to popular belief i am not a suck up..)..i am especially talking about, (clears throat), MATH...and the never ending quest for the value of that variable X...(algebra..)..i specifically enjoyed trigonometry and geometry..(oh, now i am revealing my innate nerdy qualities to the whole of humanity...no biggie, most super heroes in fact have "nerd" written as their day job..i truly am a superhero..)..and i thought that this oh so perfect love story of me and my dearest math would never change..but alas! by virtue of the UPCAT results and my decision to drop DLSU and go to UP has changed all that...i am now faced with the perils of even failing math..(math11 to be exact..to be more specific, college algebra)...oh how i love UP! to be frank, algebra is really no biggie for anybody, you just have to find the values of either X or Y (or whatever variable may be used to represent this certain value)...but of course, that is not the case in UP (a place enveloped in complete mystery)..you see, no matter how good your professor is, and no matter how much you think you understand the lesson presented, UP always finds a way to make things so much harder for you..something beyond even the strongest of my powers..i am now stuck with a definite Love-hate relationship with mathematics..(thanks to UP!!!)..i still love it..i love it so much..but somehow, after all these years, nagsawa na siya sa akin and now math hates me..(poor me!!!)..my superpowers are truly no match for UP-Manila's Math11..it is my kryptonite...what is the value of Kryptonite that UP have for us superheroes dwelling within its walls, you may ask?! well after much contemplation and mathematical computations i have finally concluded that it is simply the limit of (1+1)/deltaX as deltaX approaches 0 ..(note that i can't use the greek symbol delta..)

*****(oooooooh!!! my * are back!)

trying to fight the urge:
i have (for the longest time possible) been trying to convince myself to go on a diet and stick to it..and now after much contemplation..i vow (note that i now vow..and not just promise..) to go on a diet and stick to it..no matter how hard it would be for me...and the funny thing is, i am writing all of these after i was presented with a pack of my lola's famous polvoron (which i am definitely going to consume) and as i am eating a piece of Chocolate Crunchies..(yum yum!!!)

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my date:
i had a date with my kuya last night..(one that was very much unexpected and definitely not planned as we were in our pambahays)..well, i had a great time though, (sure beats studying)..anyway, we talked about the condition in which the Philippines is in right now..and it was kinda surprising to note that as much as we would like to help out, and in so much as we would like to change things are and create a better Philippines for all of us, we have agreed to a consensus that we just can't do that..(no matter how much super powers we have..) and thus we have finally concluded that the best way to help the system (by that i mean not only the government but the totality of the country) is to do our own part..i mean, let us do what we have to do, let us not mind what others are doing..let us do things we have to the best of our ability as best as we can...it's not always about rallying in the streets, shouting protests and asking for reform in the system, let us do our part..create start a revolution of change...maybe then we can have a better Philippines..oh well, it's just a thought...

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PROJECT BOYFRIEND:

hmm..by the power of suggestion, (by a certain czarina asperilla)..this is the start of a blog-series (see above for title)..it will be about my quest of finding the one to offer my heart and soul to (yuck! ang mushy!!!)...although, by the end of this blog-series (if it would ever end) it is not necessary that i would have a boyfriend..(i just want to know if my ideal guy exists..)anyway, as this is the first ever episode, i would like to present all the candidates..

my asymptotic pair:
a guy with which i have a certain connection with..(although i'm quite not sure what that connection maybe) i have forever been drawn into him...nevertheless, i am still in total cluelessness on whether or not he sees me as i see him..

my forever bestfriend:
this guy i never knew i would be close to..but in a funny twist of fate, i got to know him..and surprisingly i was moved by him..it only took a brief moment for him to touch my life (yuck!! mushy moment once again)...although i am quite uncertain by how he feels for me...although i see a glitter in his eyes when we are together..every now and then...

my co-superhero:
this one i knew for the longest time among all of the candidates...he is the crushing type really...a cutie so to speak...although i never really had anytime to bond with him, i am certain that we have a connection...although i am still not sure on whether he is the kind of guy i would want to be with...

these are the candidates for now..(although still subject to approval by the board..)...stay tuned next time for developments on this project...*singing* this is the start of something new *singing*..hihi... ^_^