40 SECRETS ABOUT YOURSELF. (grabbed from Danielle's Xanga)

Be honest no matter what.

[one] what is your natural hair color?
[honestly] >> black with what my mom refer to as "natural highlights"

[two] where was your default picture taken?
[honestly] >> at home.

[three] what's your middle name?
[honestly] >> Paulino! (and proud of it baby!)

[four] your current relationship status?
[honestly] >> SINGLE!

[five] does your crush like you back?
[honestly] >> I DUNNO. ask him. haha!

[six] what is your current mood?
[honestly] >> happy and perky.:))

[seven] what color underwear are you wearing?
[honestly] >> err..blue green???

[eight] what makes you happy?
[honestly] >> ice cream, marshmallows and cupcakes. hahaha!

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
[honestly] hahaha! i think i would like to do better academically. hahaha!

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
[honestly] >> a...uhm...dolphin! i want to know what it feels like..you know? swimming..i kind of don't know how. haha!

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
[honestly] >> yes. a lot. most of it is my fault though. swallowed a whole ice cube once. :))

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
[honestly] >> go online.

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
[honestly] >> westlife's we are one and try again. hahaha. (i love westlife!)

[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
[honestly] >> daniella

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
[honestly] >> SI IC ILAGAN! the cutest guy ever! hahaha. friend from high school who can sing sooo sooo well! hahaha. and sugor too..hahaha

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
[honestly] >> oh..the night na nagalit si mommy kay enzo at umiyak si mommy.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
[honestly] >> YEP! madaming beses na. hahaha!

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
[honestly] >> oh..i want peter petrelli's power! hahaha!

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
[honestly] >> eyes, smile...hands..hands are very important!

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
[honestly] >> white chocolate mocha..hahaha.

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
[honestly] >> waha! da and czar know..:))

[twenty-three] favorite colors?
[honestly] >> violet, blue, pink, yellow, white, GREEN...hahahaha.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
[honestly] >> YES! ako pa! *blue's clues blue's clues*

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
[honestly] >> nothing..(oral amylase??)

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?
[honestly] >> english and filipino. can sing in italian too.

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
[honestly] >> POLO BLACK!

[twenty-nine] If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
[honestly] >> cheerleaderish..(yeah! save me to save the world! joke!)

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
[honestly] yesterday from my big little brother.

[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
[honestly] >> no...never.

[thirty-two] what are u thinking right now?
[honestly] >> i want **** to get into **...

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
[honestly] >> nothing. hahaha. playing poker i guess.

[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
[honestly] >> enzo and his bullshit excuses. haha.

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
[honestly] >> i live a life of prayer?

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
[honestly] >> NO.

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
[honestly] >> err. i dunno. PEREZ fits my name. hahaha.

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush?
[honestly] >> i'm a little bit more quiet..depends really.

[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
[honestly] >> wala. i don't think of them. hahaha! they suck!

[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?
[honestly] >> MOM. hahaha.

1.LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? - i don't consider my past relationships as real. hahaha. they were just play.

2.LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? - ice cream from the grocery.

3.EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? - YEAH-HUH. AKO PA!

4.THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON - shoes/ footwear.

5.LAST FOOD YOU ATE? - bangus! YUM!

6.ONE FAVORITE SONG - err. john mayer's VULTURES.

7.WHERE DO YOU LIVE? - batangas..quezon city..

8.DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE? - NOPE.

9.LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED - super tagal na! kuya koko's wedding.

10.LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND - a week ago?? hehehe.

11.BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER SAID - me?? ang dami di ako makapili! HAHA!

12.WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? – PIZZA NIRO. JOLLIBEE! McDo. we eat a lot you know!

13.CAN YOU COOK? – Yes..but i need to learn more pa.

14.WHAT? - huh?

15.LAST TIME YOU CRIED? a long time ago..

16.LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF - i don't worry too much..

17.FAVORITE MOVIE? – the classic..hehehe. and madami pa...but ngayon..yun talaga. hehehe.

18.CAN YOU SING? a little..i guess.

19.DO YOU SMOKE? – NO. i hate smoking!

20.PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? - can i have both please?:D

21.DO YOU LIKE COFFEE? – YES! coffee is good for bodies that are subjected to too much stress. hahaha!

22.LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO? – my parents.

23.LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST? - my dad.

24.WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED? - a message form da saying that i got my father's lips..(i beg to disagree..)

25.CAN YOU PLAY POOL? - Yes..a little...

26.CAN YOU SWIM? – NO! never learned how to!

27.FAVORITE ICE CREAM? - yung malamig na matamis..hahaha. (basically, basta ice cream)

28.LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID? – kanina. hahaha.

29.WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING? – 10 something. hahaha

30.WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND? – bumming?? i dunno.

31. BIRTH DATE – February 11, 1990

32.ARE YOU SMILING? - yes.

33.DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW – YES. i miss everyone..just like da.

34.IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO? - i want to go to...err..paris.

35.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? ano ba? ako pa mawalan! *arambarambaramba calendar boys..oooh kat's calendar boys*

36.DO YOU HAVE A SISTER? – YEP! ate.

37.ARE YOU IN LOVE? - with will and john lloyd cruz and jake cuenca and enchong dee (who happens to be the nephew of my mom's friend.) even if i heard a rumor saying that enchong's gay.

38.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL? – a lot of times na.. my parents are doctors.

39.DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW? – YES. my college friends..all of them.

40.WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY? – i dunno. take a bath? play poker??

It's semestral break. But then again, I can't feel it. There's this nagging feeling that I have something else to do or that there was something I missed out. You see, after the kind of semester I had, one cannot expect me to return to normal. No, never ever again. It's just not possible for my old self to come back again. That old self being someone who can sit and do nothing for a whole day and not study and not think about anything. I can't do that anymore. I guess, that's what UP and CAMP does to you. You turn your back from the days when you were delinquents and look forward to a life of hard work and perseverance. One that will remind you day in and day out that being smart is not enough for you to survive, you have to be it all. You have to be, in my friend Micole's words, "a phenomenal man or woman". You have to be able to make the right decisions, the right choices; you have to stand up and shake it off when you fall; you have to act like you're alright when in reality you want to cry already; you have to be strong and strive hard; you have to like what you're doing and you have to be passionate. Being smart or lucky is not enough for you to survive life in UP. You have to be it all. But unfortunately, I cannot be it all. I can only try. And I can only push myself, I can only do what I'm capable of. And I can only PRAY for the best.

(so that about sums it all up..my first semester in second year and how i do not want to relive it ever again. and how I am still hanging by a thread, dangling for life)

***** (in other news)

My Friendster shout-out right now says "sometimes, ending up together is not the best thing..." and that's actually true. I have learned that now. You see, I have always been a mamon and all of my friends know it. I have always believed in happily ever afters and of happy endings, I always believed that life was a fairytale and I am one of its many princesses waiting for my prince charming. But life is not a fairytale, and I am most certainly not a princess. So I gave up. Yes, I gave up. I gave up on the waiting. It's not because I don't believe in happy endings anymore, it's just that I know that it's not going to happen to me. At least not now.

You see, I have come to the conclusion that boys are really stupid, no matter how smart they may seem academically. They all have this little bit of stupidity in them that can never go away. That's the reason why they don't say the right things, they don't do the right things, they don't see the right things and they don't feel the right things. They suck, in general. I'm sure that every male reader that I have right now is violently screaming "FOUL", well, it's the same reaction we get when we read how you label the female species as "maarte and irrational". That's just how things go, we don't understand each other, we were never meant to understand each other. And that's the main reason why I gave up. Because I can't understand anymore...and I am too tired to try AGAIN.

So that's why my shout-out's like that...still unclear to you? Well, you see, I did fall in love recently and I tried my best to shake the stone that I fell in love with. But all my efforts did not pay off. I gave up. Of course, there was a lot of bitterness inside me at first and I kept on sour graping and I kept on rambling and ranting, but then I decided to stop that too. So I spent the last two months not thinking about him and keeping myself busy. Now that I have nothing to do, I finally had the time to look back and think back. And in the painful process of reminiscing, I realized that ending up together is not necessarily the best thing in the world. I think that if we did, we would only be fighting and that would've caused everybody so much more pain. But because we didn't, everybody was spared from that. And when I think about it, the process of falling in and falling out of love was the best experience I could have ever had with him. He taught me so much about life and love and of what it really takes to love and what love really means. He taught me how to be more patient, he taught me how to be more humble and he taught me that not everything I want today, I will still want tomorrow. He taught me how pain can be a beautiful thing and how sorrow can make you a better person. He taught me how to be more understanding and more considerate. But most importantly, he taught me that boys at his age are stupid and are immature. And that's a whole lot better experience than holding hands or hugging or kissing.

CONGRATULATIONS

TO THE

DE LA SALLE

GREEN ARCHERS!

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By the way, I was there at the Coliseum when La Salle bagged the UAAP Men's Basketball Championship...and can i just say that that was one of the best things about being a Lasallian. I miss being a Lasallian. I miss the cheers, the drums and the alma mater hymn, and having been able to witness that game and cheer and sing was the best detoxification activity ever. But surprisingly, my favorite part of the whole event was when we were cheering for the other schools. Especially Jervy Cruz of UST and Chris Tiu, represented by his brother Charles. It was one of the few times you would hear a sea of green shout, "Go Ateneo" with matching drum beats from the DLSU Pep Squad. It was, however, heart breaking when UE lost. James Martinez, my long time crush from way way back, was crying and I wanted to hug him, even though he was sweaty already.

*****

I'M ALMOST THERE.

C'MON KAT...

YOU CAN DO IT.

this is where math1 comes in handy. haha. enjoy decoding my blog entry. hahaha!

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