hmm..making up for lost time...(hehe)...

hmmm...i was not able to update my blog yesteday..(don't ask why, issues will be spawned once more...)..anyway...being the great person that i am (nyah right!) i wrote down the things i was suppose to blog about na lng..although i am now having trouble deciding on whether to continue on and post my first entry..which is actually..something private..oh well, no names naman eh..:)

The Infamous (drumroll please..) NIPPLE TALK!!!! (sequel: yellow balls):
(note: nothing sexual friends..just plain clean fun..^_^)

well, being the lucky girl that i am, and having been spawned to a family that is..ehem..so to say, always "happy" (happy that is masking the truth of insanity [in a good way that is]..), i am ehem, fortunate, enough to witness some of the proofs of man's social evolution..this time in the guise of a very interesting "nipple talk"..ahahaha!! (which btw i think i started..ahahaha!!!) and would i forget to mention the existence of "yellow balls" (oh i love my mommy.^_^)..yellow balls..yellow balls...anyway..i have finally concluded, after much side-aching, jaw-numbing laughter, that there are things that are better left unsaid..keeping the public in guessing of what such talk contributed to the enlightenment of man..go beyond the nipple my dear friends..that i would suggest...i assure you it was not and does not involve anything sexual...and i repeat..GO BEYOND THE NIPPLE!!! and the yellow balls... ahahaha!!!

(leaving things to your imagination..ahahaha!!! naughty me....)

my nth 50 first date:

hmm..i have to say that this movie is one of the sweetest ever made...(sweet but not cheesy (wait, cheese is not suppose to be sweet, it's suppose to be salty..), a great love story but not exclusively a chick-flick..[it's an adam sandler movie!!!]...)anyway, it was about (gahd knows what time) evening..(evening?!)..when my dear friend danielle sprouted out of nowhere telling me that 50 first dates (once again may i say..)was on HBO..at first, it was kind of a hohum for me..(i've watched that movie too many times..haha!!!) but then again, it was as if it was calling me..(i hear calls from everywhere you know..it's one of my superpowers...super ultra bionic ears..)..anyway, i was not able to finish the movie (for the first time my dear friends, due to an untimely dinner call, which actually had good timing for i was geting a bit hungry..huh?!) but the whole movie was stuck playing in my mind..(it was kinda wierd though i admit, having scenes flashing before your conscious unconscious mind...) adn after dinner, the movie (in my mind that is..) aso came to an end, with drew barrymore and adam sandler out in sea 9with kids might i add)...well, you know me, i realize things on the most ulikely times...and true enough i had an epiphany (brought about by my heavy dinner and light mind-movie)..anyway here it goes, (as i say it to myself): "that's the kind of guy i want..someone who would everyday be patient enough to shoot me a video telling me of what happened the day before with so much faith that i would remember him and everything else, despite memory lapse..i know i don't have any disorder hindering me from remembering things..but wouldn't it be great to have someone who you know would do even the craziest things for him to be with you?! i mean..isn't that sweet?!..i want to have that..but then again..i realized that it was another one of my fantasies, and the odds of that happening in real life (to me in this case) is one in a billion.i told you,,i don't really get the guy i desperately want...oh well, i guess i just need to wait..and wait and wait..(oh! when would you show yourself ba?! i'm tired of hide and seek...show yourself before it's too late..)

Sleeping and waking up once more:
(a refutation of my previous blog entry entitled a farewell note [for you])

i slept for twelve hours yesterday..it was my way coping with all the stress i've had to endure after a weekend of fun..(a welcome party for me and my friends to the real world..)..it was kinda funny that when i woke up, my first thought of the day was him..(it was him! oh why should it be him?! why?!)..as i promised myself the day before that it was his last day governing my whole existence, i brushed him off (well his thought that is) and went downstairs for, ehem, lunch..(it was already 12 noon, and my kuya just came home from school..)..i was really bothered by his persistent existence in my mind..he was there, when i had my first bite, when had my first drink, when i was looking through the paper..he was there..i always thought of what he may be doing at the same time..whether he had eaten lunch already or if had to go to school that day..anyway, in short, he never ceased to exist in my mind..and it was really bothering me..(how could he have survived all those crying and sulking?! [which lasted for about ten minutes])..it was unfair..i've had endured too much already and i deserved a release..but much to my dismay, and the dismay of many others...i just cannot forget about him..i surrender to the fact that i will never be able to escape him..and everything else..i have lost the battle of falling out...i was not successful this time..but it doesn't matter anymore..maybe i should just go with it, maybe i shouldn't suppress my feelings..maybe i should not contain them...maybe then this will all pass..maybe then i would be freed from this prison..but what if all these maybe's end up with me falling even more deeply? should i still risk "me getting hurt" once more?! i dunno..but if i don't risk this, will i regret it?! i do not want to have any regrets, for i do not want to live in the what if's of life..maybe this is just the way things are meant to be..some are meant to hurt, while others are meant to be happy..(maybe i belong to the sad group of people who are meant to hurt...well, maybe not..my other half wouldjust have to find me..[tell you the story of halves next time..])

NOT KNOWING WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT....

skin change..(for miggy):
well, my friend miggy said that my blog image was too emo..i wouldn't want to look emo?! ako pa!!! anu ba un?! ako emo?! hindi ah..so now i changed my blog image...i got this one pala from my kuya jiro's deviantArt...(if you want to check him out..i have him on my credits list)..thanks kuya jirs!!! Alabshew!!! :-*

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Late:
i have this chronic illness of having insomia during the most unlikely times...and true enough, this sickness of mine struck again! and what better time than last night...i couldn't sleep, and sleep was very important because i haven't had a good night's rest for four straight days already and the worst part is (drumroll please..) we had a test the next day!!!!(CHEMISTRY PA!!!)..it's not like hindi ako nakatulog or something, pero my gahd!!! 7:30 na ako nagicing!!!! bwiset..and xempre ung chem test namin eh 8:30 db?! at ang travel time from QC to Faura ay mga 1 hour...hay!!! mad dash talga ako kanina..although i made it..nangamote naman ako sa test..(did i mention na hindi ako naka aral?!)..well, magdadasal na lng ako..

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not over him:
it's kinda funny,but i guess i'm not yet over him..no matter how much i say i am and that everything's in the past already...the funnier part of it is that, there's nothing to get over..i mean, nothing really happened..we never really had anything..(i really believe it was all in my mind)..the whole thing is so complicated..and i really do not what to do..i have had so much of everything already..i do not want anything to do with him anymore to tell you the truth..(bakit nga ba ganun?! ewan ko ba..)..i know that there will be disappointments from all corners of the world but i have had it and i am now ready to forget everything...i know that i can never escape him...yes, he will always be there, but i've just had it..i know that it's a longshot, but i will try to forget about everything na lng..i feel so stupid writing about this and writing about him..(well, it proves that i do not get every guy i like to those who think that way..)...maybe i'm just tired that's why i think about silly hings..(maybe it's all because of my playlist..)...it's just hurtful that there's nothing to look forward to with him..not even friendship..and it all happened in a flash...without warning..maybe if i was prepared for it i wouldn't be tearing up now..i'm just hurt..this will pass..i know it will..i just have to get everything out...(why do you have to be so cruel?! anu ba ginawa ko sa yo huh?!)

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Gratitude Notes:
amidst all the disasters in my life (whether imaginary or real), i am fortunate enough to have friends who would stick with all my moods...for danielle who, since forever, kept me in touch with reality..for miggy, who would make me see how silly i am, thus makingme stop na..for minnie for being there lagi...for nissan and bea..my LRT buddies..thanks for listening to my silly stories...big thanks guys... ^_^..alabshew!!!

i am especially thankful for two guys who made me realize so much in so little time...my dear kuya, thanks for making me see things that i refused to realize..kahit na niloloko mo ako lagi at madalas napipikon ako sayo..salamat pa din... ^_^..kay guy sebastian..(lol)..thanks for giving me back my focus (although i dunno how..)on things and taking my mind off he who must not be named...thank you for showing me the beauty in guinea pigs..(long story, metaphor yan..)...you two will forever be my kuyas in UPM...big thanks..alabshew!!

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farewell note (for you):
this will be your last day in my whole existence..and i quote from the notebook: "i'm not bitter anymore because i know that what we had was real.."..eventhough i am not quite sure what we really had..from this day on, my existence will not revolve around you anymore..you have been a short and bittersweet chapter of my life..and now that i have finished pouring my heart out..i am ready to let you go and give you up..(were we even really friends?!)...although, you will never stop existing in a certain, hidden part of me,i know that we will be both happier after this..(especially me..)..and i know that this will all be for the better...goodbye to you..(i hope you're hapy now..)

Finally on the right timeline...


After one of the best weekends of my life!!!:
i had the best weekend of my life with my blockmates (and laterals)!! (well, cross out sleeping in a resettlement area-ish place disguised as a "resort")..we had fun from the start to the end..(although, i still am sad about not being able to swim..)..anyway, i love how our block stuck together through the whole thing..(hehe..an drama?!)..I LOVE BLOCK 17!!!! GO SP!!! SPE-ECH Pathology!!!!

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The MidNight talk (with czar and danielle):
well, the first night, which we spent in the bus, was a time of realization for me..i had finally woken up to the reality that my fantasies about me and this certain "stranger" is never gonna happen..i've risked falling in love with him, but now i have come to this painstaking stage of falling out of love..(which is kinda strange, too little a time of loving him..would that be my mistake now?! that's the risk i take of falling out of love..)..i know it's too hasty for me to conclude things like these, but who can blame me?! i'm getting hurt already, almost every time he's there i get hurt..so with the advice of my two very lovely friends (which i chose to take, btw), i have finally resolved to stop this garbage about him...i hope this would not be as hard as my summer love affair goodbye..i just hope he would look at me again..

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passing notes in class..tsk tsk tsk...:
i spent math class passing notes with my dearest kuya..and boy was he irritating..grabe ah!!! he kept on insisting on things which did not really happen or exist..i mean, puhlease kuya...wag ganun okei?! i know you have these fantasies of him and me being what you think we are..but no kuya..wake up okei?! fantasies mo lng un..(ako nga nagicing na eh..)

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what hurts the most?!:
i dunno..maybe the fact that we were so close, we had so much to say, then we just watched each other walk away..(wow!!!! kanta un di ba?! kanta...ahahaha!!!! oo nga..kanta xa..)..anyway,
kahit kanta pa yan...that's what hurts the most...yan un..yan...ahahahaha!!!! (oh well...)

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5 Great Discoveries (of last week, the weekend and day):
#5: I CAN SING!!!!! (grabe na ito..ahahaha!!!)

#4: My period has very bad timing..(my gahd!!! nung sabado pa!!!)

#3: I am very easy to neglect..(nobody seems to see me..huhuhu..)

#2: JULIUS CAN SING!!! (hahaha!!! i had a great time listening to you sing in gbox..haha!!! next time ulit..^_^)

#1: I am a natural born actress!!! hahaha!!! (impromtu monologue huh?! kamusta naman un?! "my son this is how you herd, this is how you hunt.." ahahaha!!!)

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sign out time: 10:15 Pm
things to do: Study for a quiz...(my gahd..inuna pa ang blog!!!)
state: banggag pa rin..

^_^

(Aug. 20, 2006; 9:29 AM...)

I hate how coffee turns into an addiction
and how it keeps you up all night.
How it burns and makes your heart
beat fast.

Especially how it makes you crave
for its rich and sweet promises
of grains, milk and sugar.

Moments later, it puts you
into a melancholic mood
of coldness.

Before you realize it,
it has consumed you before
you should have consumed it.

Empty.
Hollow.
Bitter.

Then again,
you crave for another cup.

a text message i got from czar's blog..
(wow, i get txt messages from blogs.ahahaha!)

is this really coffee?! if it is, the same goes with love...
that's how i feel right now, like i have had too much of it and i'm left empty...
but now i'm asking and craving for more...

WANTED: APPLY HERE
PERFECT BOYFRIEND
mr. right for me...

i have simple criteria...

chinky eyes..
close up smile..
non-empty brain (i've had it with stupid guys..)...
spongy or curly hair..(i don't like the flimpy hair type..)
nice voice..(you have to know how to sing..)
can play either the guitar, piano, saxophone or violin...
would know my REAL worth...
and lastly
one who make me look at my criteria and throw it in the trash...

It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person
to love while at the back of our minds we know that
the person we truly love will always be an exception.

(from a text i got from someone i don't remember)

i don't know what to do...i need someone who would hold me in his arms and say that he loves me no matter what..one who would look into my eyes and see my soul..one who would let me see his soul..one who would sing me songs of love with his simple whispers..one who would turn looks into smiles and smiles into laughter..one whom i would not posses, and one who would not want to posses me..instead, one with whom i would share a mutual surrender...he does not have to be my fantasy, for i have learned that fantasies are for dreams,and that we live in harsh reality...i just need someone...someone i would love and love me back..unconditionally..

(Aug 20, 2006; 8:48AM)

I'm not quite sure whether this is my first blog entry since after my recovery..(wow huh?! parang ganun kalala ang sakit ko..)...but, oh well, (as miggy would say)..here it goes...

WHEN THE QUEEN ALIEN ATTACKS!!!:
i call "HER" an alien for very very important reasons..(one is that she does not really live here, and that she's sitting right across me, waiting for me to finish so that she could use OUR laptop..oh well, i'll let her wait..)..well it's been quite a silent weekend for all of us..my cousin keeps to his room all day, tinkering with THEIR laptop...playing, studying..basta nasa loob lng siya ng room niya, ok na siya..and i don't blame him..i would love to do the same but such action would imply so many things..(i'm not normally that way..)..well, i know it's mean to think na this would be a very very long and tiring week just because she's here, pero, we'll see..she seems more quiet now..(she can't come through to us..we're too complex for her feeble brain that could only process "HER" stuff, leaving no space for understanding and reason)...well, i hope she enjoys her stay this time though..(believe it or not, she thinks our home is unwelcoming..PUHLEASE!!!!)..anyway, she has ginny, the dog, to talk to any time...she'll be fine..

HISTO WEEKEND:
well, we have this test in History 1 on tuesday, that would span form about the creation of the land forms of the Philippines to the Pre-colonial times..(how long is that?! hmm..a few million years..) (she left!!!! ahahaha!!! guess she can't wait..)...hmm, anyway, this test involves writing down answers in alibata (the ancient pre-colonial alphabet of the Philippines), and although i'm okei with it and it doesn't really take that much effort to learn, it's still freaking me out!!!! it is like 30% of my final grade, and of course, histo?! i can't flunk that subject...there would be no excuse for flunking that subject...although i don't really need it in my course..ahahaha!!

THE LOSING BATTLE:
before, i have resolved myself to go on diet..but no, i haven't kept my promise..hahaha!!! well, it's ok..i can start tomorrow (i got sick remember?!)..but if we have more dinners like tonight, (we had buffalo wings, nachos, pot roast and mashed potato) i would definitely lose the battle...hmmm...oh well, we'll see...

MIXED UP SONGS:
i have the cutest cousin ever...he's not a toddler (he's a little older than me for that matter..) but he is just so cute!!!! ahahaha!!!! i love it when he sings...i just love it..hahaha..here are some of his mixed up tunes and lyrics...(sorry, no name naman eh..):

michael buble's For once in my life:
For once in my life,
I won't let ZORRO hurt me...
(huh?! ZORRO?? okei..ahahahaha!!!! )

little orphan annie's tomorrow:
we can still eat, tomorrow
tomorrow. i love you,
tomorrow and the day before..
(AHAHAHAHA!!!!! bagong version!!!!
and the day before?! you're always a day away..
ahahahahahahaha!!!)

THOUGHTS OF HIM(a losing battle part 2):
the thought of him is still here..here in my mind..i still think about his smile (oh the smile that launched a thousand ships...), his very amusing laugh (oh that laugh, that laugh..), the jester-ing look in his eyes (oh, how i love that spark of mischief..)..and now i have finally realized that trying not to love him is also a losing battle...my friend danielle asks of why i risk these much for such (as she thinks) an unworthy person..(he's not unworthy, i'm unworthy..)..and i give the same answer to you all, because i don't find any reason not to..and i know that if i don't risk this, the regret would haunt me for life...i'm not expecting to get what i want after all these, cause as i said to my friend danielle, it's not always about getting what you want but rather doing something you really want love to do without thinking of what you may get from it...(am i saying that i already love him?!..err, yes?! i don't know)...(but i am definitely amused by his presence in my life..)

LSS: What Hurts the Most (wla lng..)
Food for the heart:

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot,
A world forgetting, of a world forgot.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,
Each Pray'r accepted and Each wish resign'd.

(obviuosly from the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

(Aug 13, 2006; 9:58 AM)

DAMN THAT COLD VIRUS!!!!:
for the first time in like 4 years, dalawang beses ako nagka sipon(it has always been once a year lng)..BWISET!!! i hate being sick..lalo na kapag sipon lng na wala namang gamot tlga..argh!!! bkit ba kasi hindi pa ako maging immune noh?! sa tinaon taon ko ng nagkakasipon hindi pa ba ako nakakadevelop ng immunity against it?! argh!!! bwiset!!!!

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PARTIAL CLOWN?!:
my friend czarina says the silliest things..(sorry czar, but this is the truth)..today while we were chatting along, she mentioned that she was suprisingly, depressed..(huh?! si czar dapressed?? weh?!),,and frankly, it was kind of a shock for me..and of course, true to my "role" a friend, i was (obliged?!) to comfort her..(czar!!! guess who's online?! hmm..weeeeee..)..hmm..well. long story short, her "stalker" (madhatter?!) went OL (finally?!)..and her depression was slowly eradicated..(i told you czar, amusement and love are two very different things, that is not amusement, that is love, no matter how much you deny it..)..it was then that, ehem czar uttered (di ba chat lng?! pano niya sinabi?!) these words: "salamat for keeping me partially happy while jed's not around, he makes me partially happy too" (oh, eh di ngaung kaming dalawa na ung OL completely happy ka na?!) and it was then that i realized my purpose and meaning in life...I WAS BORN TO BE A PARTIAL CLOWN!!! how delightful..thanks czar..(sarcastic?! nah, i love you czar..)

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GUILTY PLEASURES:
if you're an avid reader of my blog, (well, i guess you're not, i don't get a lot of comments..ahahaha!!!), you would know that i am currently struggling to stay true to my "diet"..but how could i?! how?! tonight, for dinner..we had..ehem, pizza and mojos..(i guess you know what pizza house we ordered from)..to add to this for desert i had, ehem, an eclair (that would't fit in my mouth by the way..) and napoleonesse (tama ba spelling ko?! hindi ata..ahahaha..anyway, i'm naturally poor in spelling anyway..)..and my gahd, was it good..but after dinner, i really felt guilty..how would i lose weight? argh!!! i need help..ahahaha!!!! (i can do this..i can do this..)

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FUNNY MOMENTS:
when kuya talks cat:
okei, for the sake of specificity, (because i call almost everybody kuya..), let's call him "the guinea pig man"..(sorry kuya, sorry tlga...i don't want to put in names eh...cute naman eh, parang super hero.."the guinea pig man"..)..when i went OL, i was at the bathroom (i really had to pee), but i heard that somebody "buzzed"..well anyway, when i finally finished "peeing", i found out that it was, ehem, the guinea pig man(?!)..and his greeting was, "meow!~" (it made me smile though, it really did..)..well i replied..but somehow, the guinea pig man who talks cat, was nowhere to be found?! (suplado ka tlga kuya...S-U-P-L-A-D-O..ahahahha!!)..anyway, lagot ka sa akin sa tuesday..ahahaha!!!!

czarina's 9 quesitons:
when a guy, who is flirting with you intellectually, as czarina would rationalize (it's still flirting for me though), would ask you what song you dedicate to him...hmm..a girl would usually answer a title of a song that is so mushy one would probabaly throw up, but of course, the guy would be touched..but no, not czar..ask her that question and what would she answer?! (drumroll please!!!) STARS ARE BLIND!!!!(eventhough the gods are crazy, evethough the stars are blind, if you show me real love baby. i'll show you ma-aayn..)ahahahaha!!!!! KUDOS TO YOU CZARINA ASPERILLA!!!!

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BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD DAYS:
well my current LSS's bring me back to my childhood..they are from one of the classic disney movies...which one you might ask?! (drumroll please..) ANASTACIA!!!!!!!

(Aug 12, 2006; 10:29 AM???)


NAKAPAGCHARGE DIN SA WAKAS!!!! :
well, after two straight days of sleep deprivation i have had my good night's sleep..i slept for more than 15 hours!!! (straight ung 13 hours, from 12mn until 1 pm then from 2pm to 7pm)...at ito ay dahil sa akin ka ewan ewan na pagkakasakit..(bwiset!!!! ubo na naman?! once a year lng schedule ng ubo ko..well, may kasama namang lagnat..ahahaha..)..ayoko ng mga ganitong sakit..argh!!! damn that stupid cough virus...(nanisi ba naman?!)

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HAHAHAHA!!!! (wala ng mailagay..):
wla lng..
wla na ako mailagay eh..well, now i'm listening to kaskade's sweet love..(o di ba?!..house na ulit ang playlist ko..)yan, it's you it's me na..ahahahaha!!!! (i'm in a confe nga pla with czar and cha)and, grabe, hanggang confe ba naman siya pa rin ung topic..(like what i said cha, hindi ako comfortable pag ganun..)..anyway..since hindi na kayo nagrereply (cha and czar)..at since OL na si miggy, kami n lng maguusap..

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THE DIET STARTS!!!!:
i therefore resolve (with my friend miggy) to start and stay true to my diet..(ARGH!!!! ang taba taba ko na!!! tama na..kata, apple pies, and double chocolate oat cookies are poison for you ...)..kaya ko to!!! nagawa ko na ito dati..(kata, pag may baon ka, ipakain mo na lng sa mga blockmates mo at mga laterals..please lng...they'll enjoy it more than you..ahahaha!!!)

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ILOCOS HERE I COME!!!!:
after much pleading and begging, ehem, (pinanganak na artista tlga ako..ahahaha)..napayagan din po akong sumama sa Ilocos Field trip namin ni Mom..ahahaha!!!! thanks mom!!! i love you!!!! mwah!!!! :-*..
(well bago nun, i have to go on a trip to a hospital na hindi ko pa tlga alam kung alin..ahahaha..bkit?! duh?! may dadalawin..nu nga kuya?!^_^)

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LSS ONCE MORE:
yesterday, i had a different LSS, it was It's Gonna Be love by mandy moore i guess, pero today, it's back to my last LSS before that...which is..(drumroll please..)..HANGING BY A MOMENT by LIFEHOUSE!!!!(now playing..)..ahahaha..(changed my playlist again..i can't get enough of these songs..)..ahahahaha!

(Aug 11, 2006; 12:08 )

I SURVIVED!!!:
well, after the very much feared departmental exams, i was very unsure whether i was gonna pass or fail..(if you read my blog, you might know na i was blogging the night before instead of studying)..and thank GOD!!! i was able to pass the test..hahaha..KUDOS to me!!! hahaha...(i still can't believe that i passed!!!)..

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THE THREE LEGGED RACE (that turned into a five legged one):
hmm, sa PE class namin, xempre, dahil phil.games xa eh..hmm..naglalaro kami every session..ahahaha!!!!! and this week's relay game, was, ehem..masakit..ahahaha!!! at dahil,ehem, mabigat at mejo lampahin ang partner ko sa umpisa hanggang sa huli, eh, ehem, ito na po..may PASA na po ako..at sa totoo lng masakit xa..at higit sa lahat pangit xa tignan..huhuhu!!! well, six months lang yan kata, okei lng yan..(yeah right?!)...

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TUESDAY THEME DAYS:
hmm...this is quite amusing..ahahaha!!! kasi naman, nagsimula sa skirt day ni yssa, (not that it's bad, it's actually kinda cute..)..noong tuesday (aug. 8, 2006) this week kasi, it was skirt day for girls and pink shirt and shorts day for boy's sa block 17!!! ehehehe..hmm, kahit na hindi lahat ay nag skirt..(mga pasaway na babae!!!)...kaya aun, as agreed upon, tuesday, aug. 15, 2006, will be stripes day at ehem...ito ang pinaka asteeeg!!!! ang tuesday after that which is aug. 22, 2006, ay..(drumroll please..)..HIGH SCHOOL UNIFORM DAY!!!!..at take note...dapat complete to..ahaha!!!seryoso kaya kami dito?? hmm..ahu??? watcha think?! ahahaha!!! bahala na..hehehe..

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PAIRED to PERFECTION?
(warning: if haven't been updated with the recent happenings in YM, do not read..hindi niyo makikilala kung sino ung "siya" dito..)
duh?! di ko naman alam na magrered din xa ah..nagulat nga ako nung soc sci time..kasi naman eh..nakapula ba naman xa?! hmp!!! tama ba naman un?! tsk tsk..bkit ganun??? tadhana??? no please no!!!! wag naman ganun, misfortune na yun..ahahaha!!!! at take note, hindi lng xa ang naka pula..(anton kasi eh, wag ganun, like third time na to, nakakatawa na, kami na lng ni, ehem, ahahaha!!!!...)..-putol?! may binura ako!!! ahahaha!!!!-(bkit ganun nu?!, wag ka namang ganun...expression lng un..wag kang padala, i say that to everybody..okei?!)

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INVISIBILITY CLOAK: (hay naku, dumali na naman si kata!!!! wla ka na sa HS gaga!!!)
I've got my invisibility cloak in your eyes, you don't see me, you don't know i exist..maybe that's how it's gonna be..okei..i don't mind..fine with me..

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TIME CHECK:(still same playlist..)

11:36 PM - our home is quiet again..i can hear myself breathe...
- If I'm not in Love with You (now playing..again..)
11:39 PM - you and me (now playing..again..)
11:42 PM - hanging by a mmoment (now playing..my last LSS..)
- chatting with miggy..kami lng OL..
11:46 PM - it's gonna be love (now playing...again..i told you..same playlist..)
ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT : not thinking about him anymore..(thank GOD!!!)

(note to self: keep up the good work!!!! you're doing great.. ^_^)

(reply to self: I KNOW RIGHT!!!!! yes, i will keep it up!!! i CAN do this!!!!)

LSS: it's gonna be love, mandy moore

(*singing*
it's gonna be love, it's gonna be great,
it's gonna be more than i can take,
it's gonna be free it's gonna be real,
it's gonna change everything i feel,
it's gonna be sad, it's gonna be true,
it's gonna be me baby, it's gonna be you baby,
it's gonna be love...
*humming*)

haha..i' m posting here all my past blogs...from my friendster and multiply accounts, para naman masaya di ba?! ahahaha!!! tinatamad pa akong mag post ng iba eh..i'll put dates na lng.. :)

(posted Aug.08,2006 11:18pm)

FLAVOR OF THE MONTH:
hmmm..much to the delight of my friend pauleen (i guess)...i have finally concluded that i cannot win this war (war ba naman ang itawag?!)..kaya, from this day on, i will, to the best of my abilities, play along..and i hope that would stop them from teasing me..hahaha!!! (mag sawa naman kayo!!!)

*****

LOVE?! (na naman?!) NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!:
hmm..i have a sudden case of "falling in love" with no reference point..hahaha!!!! maybe, i'm just falling in love with love..ahahaha!!! well, maybe i am...bacause after a whole week of house music, i have finally changed my playlist..(grabe!!! i still love house pero bakit ganito???? i love house pero bkit ganito???)..i have super senti songs now (remember me this way, if i'm not in love with you, etc.), with majority of them from the OST of A Walk to Remember..gosh!!!!( kata!!! katrina!!!! chi!!!! anu nang nagyayari sa'yo?! hindi ito maaari!!!! hindi!!!! no...please no!!!! don't!!!!! he's not the right one!!!!)

*****

LACK OF CREATIVITY KILLED THE BLOCK:
BE CREATIVE NAMAN!!!! I WAS A STUDENT LEADER DIN NAMAN ONCE NO?! CAN"T YOU BE MORE CREATIVE THAN THAT?! YOU'RE SO MINISTERIAL!!!!!

*****

MY ABSENT SUPPORTIVE KUYA:
kuya naman..hmmm...(no name?! wag na..haha)..i was willing naman tlga to donate blood pero i was really scared (first time ko ba naman?!)..hmm..sabi mo sasamahan mo ako..ikaw tlga..ikaw pa nga ung may ganang magtampo kung hindi ako mag-donate tapos ikaw ung wala...ahahaha!!!! di kita papansinin sa math11(nagtampo ba naman daw oh?!)..ahahaha!!!!!

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TIME CHECK:
10:29 AM - haven't done anything school related since i woke up..ahaha!!!(and there's so much to do!)
10:31 AM - remember me this way (now playing...)
10:34 AM - if i'm not in love with you (now playing...)
10:37 AM - you and me (now playing...)
10:45 AM - it's gonna be love (now playing...)
ALL DAY ALL NIGHT: thinking about him again!!!! argh!!! i have to get him out of my system...

(note to self: stop thinking about him!!!! wala kang makukuha jan!!!! go back to house!!!!house music rocks!!!! dance to it...)

(**reply to self: i can't stop thinking about him!!!! yes i know, house is great..pero...i love these songs..tamang tama sa mood ko..BWISET!!! i need to see a doctor..ahahaha!!!!)

LSS: hanging by a moment, lifehouse

(*singing*
i'm falling even more in love with you,
letting go of all i've held on to,
i'm standing here until you make me move,
i'm hanging by a moment here with you...
*humming*)