naku!!! nakaisip mag update!!!

hmm..it's been quite sometime already since i last updated my blog..i had to go on vacation you know..in my last blog entry, i was , ehem, very very angry..(thus the large bold red font color) but today..all that has already passed..hmm..maybe because i see that he's happy with what had happened...

I SURVIVED MATH11:

oooh..i passed math11!!! HURRAH!!!! (magpapaparty nanay ko.. :P)..kahit na hindi ako uno..na hindi naman tlga kasali sa options..eh okei na rin..=p

congrats din nga pala kay Mr. Jose Anton de Leon..na tuwang tuwa nang malaman na pumasa siya..na abot tenga ang ngiti, at halos tumalon...ang wierd mo tlga..wala ako masabi..haha!!! Joke lng.. peace!!!!=p

ay..oo nga pala..sorry naman po kay Mr. Joseph Ranier Canono na mistulang anino lng kanina..alam mo na yung dahilan nun di ba? nag usap na tayo di ba? =p..pero kahit anu pa man..nagsosorry pa din ako..paxenxa ka na..mejo nahawaan na din ako ng pagka wierd ni anton after two months of being seatmates..=p bagay sayo buhok mo..hinid pangit..para kang eminem..pero sa totoo lng bagay naman sa yo..haha!!!=p

salamat nga pala kay kuya benjo..big bro! salamat talaga..tinigilan na ako ni Mr. LRT2 3rd year from FEU..sinabi ko lng sakanya ang totoo..nahindi ko siya gusto at na nakakataot na siya..kasi malaking ang tendency niyang maging stalker..=p

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para sa mga mata lamang ni Ms. Pauleen de Grano:

oo nga pala bago ko makalimutan..ung letter ko sa baba..ung galit, eh para un kay asymptotic pair pauleen...ung dahilan semi-confidential na ako lng ang may pakana at may kagagawan..malalaman din un ng sangkatauhan sa tamang panahon..

un namang nasa isa pang blog entry bago ung madugong liham eh para sa isang lalaki..na hinid ko inakalang makikilala ko, na pinaghinalaan kong bading at ngaun ay mabuti kong kaibigan..at hanggang doon n lng yun..ata...haha!!!

at kung hindi ka si pauleen, eh isa kang pasaway na hindi nagffollow ng directions..o isang usiserong gustong makisawsaw sa usapan namin..okei lng sa akin..dahil wala ka din naman maiintindihan sa mga pinagsusulat ko..kasi ung gamit namin ni pols na language eh elfish..(yung sa LOTR)..feeling mo lng tagalog o ingles..

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gusto ko tlga manuod ng the prestige...sana naman may sumama sa akin..boring manuod mag isa eh..walang thrill..basta wag lng si Mr. Lrt2 3rd yr from FEU...

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napakasaya ko ngaung araw na ito, kahit dumoble sa laki ang labi ko dahil sa bwiset na singaw, na sinabi ko na dahil sigurado madami magtatanong kung bkit paga ang labi ko..hindi ko alam kung tama ba ung tingin kong alam kong dahilan..na alam kong alam din ni danielle na totoong dahilan..o baka pananaw lng namin yun pareho..ewan ko..pero masaya tlga ako..pero di pa naman ako nagtatalon tulad ni anton..=p

PS
tagalog naman...
para maiba..
bobongish...

hoy ikaw! OO IKAW!

ano ba? nananadya ka na ba? anu bang problema mo? bakit ba lahat n lng inaagaw mo? bakit lahat n lng ng tao na minamahal ko pinakekealaman mo? huh? anu ba kasi problema mo? huh? bakit pati siya huh? anu ba naman kasing problema mo? bakit ka na lang lagi sumusulpot sa buhay ng mga taong nakapalgid sa akin? pati ba naman siya? anu ka ba? utang na loob naman..anu ba? hindi ka pa ba titigil? alam mo bang nasaktan ako? bakit naman pati siya? anu ka bading? ayoko na..bakit ba? anu ba kasi gusto mo? sabihin mo lang..ibibgay ko sayo..wag lng pati siya..argh! ayoko na..ayoko na tlga..umalis ka na sa buhay ko! alam ko di kita matatakasan pero utang na loob naman..umalis ka na..ayoko na..sawang sawa na ako sa yo..tama na. PLEASE LNG.

i find myself drawn to you...
i wouldn't want to speak too soon..
but i feel that there is really something...
what that something may be, i do not know..
but i really, feel something..
i hope it would be you..
i know i would be happy with you...

NO...

too soon...
let's wait..
see if there really is something...
I'm over HIM already...
you made me realize that..
thanks..
thank you so much..
for everything you have done...
with doing nothing at all..
we have three and a half more years to go...
let's wait...
let's not expect...
come what may...
but i know..

you would really make me happy....

i'm officially in hell...

well, it's been nine long days since my last blog entry..and boy, so much has already happened!!!!!!! i was even on the verge of breaking down and giving up..my gahd!!! i never really imagined that my college life would be sooooo difficult..(which by the way, is an understatement)..i was lucky enough to survive the first two weeks of this month..it all started on the 8th..which marked the day of our PE finals in Diliman..which was not so much a struggle..it was fun actually, but what we had to go through after was capital H, capital E, capital L, capital L...argh!!! well, we had this insanely difficult homework, err, problem set for MATH11 (which BTW i'm failing)..it took me two days to finish..with a lot of help too..imagine the difficulty of that!!!! (one of our professors once said that our seatworks are final exams in other schools/colleges/universities!!!! ARGH!!!)...then we had our 3rd Departmental Exams on the 9th..time?? 5:30pm-7:30pm..gahd!!! that is just not right..and the worst part of such?? we had another Departmental Exams the next day for CHEMISTRY!!!! the best part??? the time we took it!!! which was 8:00am!!!! so imagine,if you just went through intellectual torture the night before, arrived home at around 9pm or 11pm for the more unfortunate one's, and because you devoted all your energy the previous days in studying for math in the hopes of paasing, you would have to study again, cover the entire section on chemistry, and guess what?? in less than 12 hours!!!! well, that is if you have crossed out sleeping and eating...argh!!! HEADACHE GALORE...well, guess what?? it doesn't stop there!!!! after your departmental exams in chemistry, you would have to attend another class in the afternoon, only to be given an assignment that is more draining..imagine squeezing a paper assignment in your very tight schedule?? imagine that?? huh?? and it's not just a simple paper..you would have answer ungodly questions that would never have crossed your mind if you were not taking philo and it has to be 8-15 pages, more importantly you would have to finish it by next week!!!! gahd!!!!, well after that class, you go home, but you have no time for rest at all..why?? because you have classes the next day!!!! and what would you do in that class this time??? oh nothing much, you would just have a 75 item exam on 5 chapters of Philippine History, which you haven't read because you were too busy with math then chem, and after the test you would have reports and presentations on previously given topics, the presentation by the way also counts as a long exam..so that is two exams in a day..that class of yours takes 6 hours to finish, and at the end, you find out that you failed the math dept's...argh!!!! the next day, you have no classes but would have to go to school anyway to see if you can still salvage your failing math grade and complete the compilation of readings for another exam in History, which will be on the day before the deadline of your Philo Paper...the readings, when complete would be another 5 chapters on Philippine History..now you are faced with a terrible challenge..how would you finish reading ALL of the readings and your paper with only 2 free days left??? why only 2?? well, you remember that you would have a presentation of your project proposal for NSTP..oh, the futility of such programs...and take note, this is not the end of it all, because you would have to endure 7 more days, packed with different final exams..with all of this, a continuous feeling of nausea, throbbing head and shaking knees...wow!!!! then your price comes..guess what?? SEMESTRAL BREAK!!!, which i think is too short..why?? it would be less than two weeks!!! gosh..this is my life..i have never read this many chapters of books in my life before..if i may say so, this has been one hell of a week, whihc is basically the worst ever..and the most difficult too..it has been a week of stress and sleep deprivation...a week when there was a point when i literally wanted to kill myslef..i'm soo tired..soo drained..i really want a break.no i don't want a break..i NEED a break..i swear, i'm going to sleep for two whole days during the sembreak..but, for now, i still have that feeling of nausea, throbbing head and shaking knees...heck, even my soul is tired and down...oh well, i chose this life..i chose The University of the Philippines over all the other Universities IN the Philippines..i should deal with this and continue to fight..what more can i do anyway???

OH NO...

well, i have this chronic illness of being a little bit, err, madrama...about a lot of things..and recently i have been receiving text messages that were really striking...those that make one smile and think...

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Love thoughts aka CRAZY THINKING

from: .. |_| ..
1-Oct_2006
16:30:27

Later in life, you will learn the subtle difeerence between holding a hand and chaining a soul..you willlearn that love does not mean learning and company does not mean secutiry...you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises..you learn to build your roads today because tomorrow's grounds will be too uncertain for plans..after a while, you will learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much..so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers...you will learn that you can endure, that you are strong and that you have worth...

this one's a little bit sad..because it gives you less hope, or should i say, it shakes one's idealism..but it is also beautiful because it gives you a sense of reality..of what is, and not what one wishes..i really like the line "...plant your own garden and decorate your own sou instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers..", because it shook me..it gave somehting to really think about...i mean, all this time i was asking and yearning for that one person that would make me "complete"..when all the while i was am, complete...

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Change of heart???

from: .. *.* ..
02-Oct-2006
00:16:33

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, who are you going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you'll be like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find that person? ---Forget your head and listen to your heart. ~meet joe black

this one really touched me..because it sparks hope in the hearts..it gives you bakc that feeling of happiness..but it's also sad because all this time i have fallen head over heels, i have been crazy about him, and i have dismissed my reason and listened to my heart..but to date..i am still alone..maybe he was not the right person...

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back to my BLOGGY mood again..

well, it's been six, (count that six) days since i last update my blog...i have no excuse for thursday and friday..when there was no electricity and the mood was just not right..but for the other days, i have none.although i have a lot of stories to share.. :P

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Bitten Once Again..

I was bitten by a bug when the elctricity came back last friday..no it was not a bed bug, or any other insect for that matter..a bug so powerful that it drove me into watching videos in youtube for hours and hours..it was the BOYBAND BUG!!! and the specifications of the strain is shown below..






well...i really do not know what happened that night i search WESTLIFE videos on youtube..but i suddenly got hooked!!!! and it has been my mission eversince to finish watching all 25,000++ videos they have on you tube...so far i've finished tabs 1-60 something..oh well, baduy na kung baduy..i'm definitely enjoying..hahaha!!!

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THE WONDERS BROWN OUT CAN GIVE YOU:

1. You get to talk to other people from school besides your blockmates.

Well, i had a great time talking with DK and Macky during the night of the brownout when everybody i know were either out of battery or would not really reply.

2. You get to appreciate the little things in life.

*eating nerds and m&m's in the dark
*hanging out with your cousins talking about anything
*candle light dinners
*a fully charged battery
*credits
*flashlights..(details later)

3. You get to send messages of concern to people you wouldn't usually send messages to because you're too shy.

4. You get to watch nature.

We watched our balete tree dance as the string winds come. Good thing it was not uprooted though..that would have been really really scary.

5. You get to enhance the powers of your imagination!!!!

well, in the dark you get to do a lot of things..haha!!! that sounded so sexual..anyway, who would've thought you could do so much with flashlights??? well, besides making shadow creatures on the wall and the classic vampire look, my cousin tep was able to create a dicovery-channel-ish presentation on the living roon wall..haha!!!! and it was really funny..if i were to give it title it would have been, "The Wonders Of Procreation" or "Behind the Kama Sutra"..ahaha!!! this time...you use your imagination.. :P

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